09 December 2019

I walked on fire Saturday. It was amazing.

This weekend I went on a men only spiritual retreat with a friend. There were 32 of us there, the youngest, Emerus, was six, the oldest was probably in his 60s. We did sweat lodge, we Om’d, we sang, we beat drums and danced, we prayed, we meditated, and we walked on fire. Yes, even Emerus.

It was an amazing experience of empowerment, of losing myself in the focus of my Creator and walking across a path of burning coals, coming out on the other side changed, but not burned. In the moments before I took that walk, I watched six-year-old Emerus raise his hands high and set his feet on that path and come out victorious. It was inspiring. I wept. I sang a hymn & said a prayer and followed him across those burning coals. Victorious.

Since walking on fire I want to talk about a principle of health that can help us in our everyday lives, one that helped at Thanksgiving, and will help at Christmas. One that helped me walk on that path of fire and come out unscathed.

Stop, Challenge, Choose.

This principle can be used in two ways.

  1. As a whole – When faced with a temptation, be it pastry, smoking, or what to do with your time, use it. 
    • It’s Christmas, presents are unwrapped, family is visiting, turkey, pie, ham, mashed potatoes, pie, stuffing, pie, rolls, pie, cranberry sauce, pie… Before you take the second piece, Stop. Pay attention to how you feel. Pay attention to your body. Are you content with what you’ve had? Is your body satisfied? Yes, you may want another piece. But does that meet your goals?
    • Challenge yourself. What if I put off having that cigarette for 30 more minutes? And when I get to the end of that 30 minutes, what if I put it off for another 30?
    • Choose what is best for you. Choose what will make you feel better, not the quick path to the dark side that is six hours of video games when the leaves need to be raked up, the gutter needs to be rehung, and the trash needs taken out.  
  2. Individually.  
    1. Stop and take a moment for yourself. Find a quiet area, relax and get comfortable, and sit in a comfortable chair or position.
      Close your eyes, just breathe. Breathe in through your nose, hold it for a few seconds. Feel your body lift as it fills with life. Notice your chest expanding to take it all in. Notice the oxygen flooding into your body, your lungs. Notice it as you exhale, as your chest settles, as the air leaves through your mouth. Focus on your breathing. If your mind wanders, that’s fine. Just recognize the stray thought, dismiss it, and return to your breathing.
      Once you are connected in the moment, let your awareness open up to your surroundings. Notice the air conditioning, the thrum of local machinery, footsteps in the hall or on the stairs. Slowly open your eyes and take another breath, ending the exercise.
      Take a moment to consider how you are feeling. Hopefully better than what you did before, with that moment of break from stress.
    2. Challenge yourself. While the fire burned that cord of wood, it was so intense we stood about 20 feet back and were still warmed by it. The coals from that fire were raked into a pathway that I was being challenged to walk across. Not to gain status, not to win an award, or prove to my friend that I could do it. It was a personal challenge that I had to undertake. It was for me, crossing that path of fire, that I can do the things that I set out to do, be it complete a project, get my degree, or maintain a healthy weight.
      One of the brothers in this group spoke of a time when his son was preparing to go away to college. He was fretting over the idea of leaving home, of facing the unknown. His father said to him, “Didn’t you walk on fire?” And that was it. The boy dropped all anxiety, because he knew he could do it. He was stronger than fire, he was stronger than life. Challenge yourself, and come out victorious.
    3. Choose life. Choose health and the things that will get you there. Choose to make your health a priority. These things don’t come all at once, but by our daily choices. “By small and simple things are great things brought to pass,”(Alma 37:6). We choose daily. Hundreds, if not thousands, of choices. Each of those small choices builds up to who we are in the end. Choices of food, of how we react to our spouse and children, of how we handle the stresses of life, of what we’re going to do with our time. 

Stop and find your path. Challenge yourself to take the one that will enable you to grow and become who you have the potential of being. Choose that path and walk it daily. And if you slip up, if you fall off, challenge yourself to get up, to get back on the path, and choose to continue. Walk your fire and be victorious.


06 December 2019

Cartoons have changed a lot since i was a kid

When I was a kid, I watched a lot of cartoons. Transformers, GI Joe, He-Man & She-Ra, Thundercats. Those were my favorties.

They were adventure stories, full of cringe-worthy campy comedy, lots of explosions, powers, fast moving action, and no death. None. And if there was a death, it was impactful. Like, we all felt it. In fact, the only one I can actually think of is Optimus, during the Transformers: The Movie, and that was heart wrenching. 

Death never happened to the NPCs, like cobra soldiers in GI Joe. In fact, the Joes were decidedly terrible shots until the invention of B.A.T. soldiers, but they were robots, so it was okay. Like Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles, when the Foot soldiers were robots, so it was okay for the turtles to destroy them. 

Today cartoons are much different. On advice from a friend, I began to watch Disney's Star Wars: Rebels. It is very different. People die all the time. Well, let me correct: Storm Troopers die all the time. All. The. Time.

I was very surprised. Cobra and Joe soldiers were amazingly adept at ejecting or leaping from their vehicles at the last possible second before their vehicle exploded, and that put them out of the fight. They apparently didn't carry side arms. The war was attrition of motorcade.

So far I've seen 3 episodes of Rebels, and there's probably 20+ Storm Troopers that die in each one.

Just an observation.


03 December 2019

MVC - Practicing Futility in Application Development

Ugh. So i'ts been 2 weeks that I've been reading like crazy all these tutorials that don't tell me what I really want to know, don't make it easy to understand, and aren't helpful. I've read through three different tutorials, and maybe it's just because I do it different and am resistant to change that I can't find what I want to do, and am stuck trying to figure out how to do it all the new way because that's the way they designed it.

What the hell are you talking about? You may be asking.

Web programming.

HTML was easy. C# with ASP was easy. Make a web form. Great, totally got that down.
But now, to do it better, I have to learn MVC. Model/View/Controller. Really, it's a lot of what I was doing in ASP, view on one page, codebehind on another. CodeBehind pulls data from a database and feeds it to the View.

But now there's another step, and another whole concept on how to do stuff, and very poor documentation on how to update your brain.

I have a simple way of doing things. My brother-in-law wrote a small function that pulls data from a database and saves it to a dataset. It works in windows apps, it works in CodeBehind on web pages. Works. Works great. And I want to continue to use it, because I can use SQL queries and stored procedures to pull the data I need.

But to my understanding (albeit only 2 weeks worth) of MVC, they want me to have a mapped database that I pull data from to my model. But when I try, it breaks all my stored procedures. Great. Then let me pull the data to a dataset. I can. Now map it to the model. No. Why? Don't know, no one can tell me.


Just had to get that out. Back to it. Due in 5 hours.


14 November 2019

Corruption in Politics

This started as a response to a post on facebook, but grew too long. I'm moving the post here where it will probably not get read lol.

Some French guy 150 years ago said, "If at 25 you are not a liberal you have no heart, and if at 35 you are not conservative you have no brain."

The issue today is that truth isn't just fact. Leftists (as opposed to normal liberals) that have aggressively taken over the Liberal side of the conversation see "My truth" instead of "the truth", because it is based on emotional reaction instead of facts.

Epstein's death is a clear case of corruption, powerful elites silencing the man who can air their dirty secrets, from Bill Clinton to Prince Andrew, and over 1000 others in his little black book, and Epstein's money and power are a clear case of corruption. The fact that his lolita island and lolita express airplane even exist is a testament to corruption. That powerful leaders in multiple countries have taken regular rides on his plane and to his island is further proof of corruption and the downfall of our society.

Political elites on both sides have lost the country. This is not just a right or left issue. Democrat leaders have spent the last three years trying to undo an elected president because they didn't win. 5 of the last 6 Republican presidents have been under threat of impeachment because of Democrats not liking the results of the election.

This is not to say that Republicans are free from corruption. The same issue that infects Democrats infect Republicans. Power corrupts. When Bill Clinton was under impeachment threat, Republicans said some very hard things as well to justify an impeachment over adultery.

Main conservatives see Liberals as uninformed. Leftists (again, as opposed to Liberals) see the Right as evil, and use authoritarian fascist tactics to beat all who oppose them into submission.

Power corrupts. Right now conservatives are being called out for their hypocrisy as they forego true conservative values and accept progressive policy, foreign influence, and larger government, just as much as Leftists are being called out for embracing socialism, over-taxation, and political violence.

The parties are trying to destroy each other, and those of us in the middle are exactly that, caught in the middle.

Movements like Blexit and Turning Point USA go to colleges and civic centers to speak to centrists and show them the crazy of the left, encouraging them to recognize the truth.

Yet TPUSA founder Charlie Kirk is under attack by America First true conservatives because of his liberal policies regarding immigration and shutting down free speech and debate.

On the left? Antifa, I think? and the Social Justice movement that do their best to infect everything around them and twist it for the sake of "Diversity" which really means no straight white people. They pretend to stand up for the rights of the minorities, but attack minorities who want to be free thinkers instead of joining the herd. Blexit founders Candice Owens and Brandon Tatum are perfect examples. Because they don't want to vote Democrat, they are smeared as white supremacists, and they're black. Youtuber Contrapoints (Natalie something), a conservative voice in the #WalkAway campaign, is also smeared for being homophobic and transphobic, but she's a transwoman. No logic, only "Follow me or be destroyed."

Hillary Clinton said it best: "You cannot be civil with a political party that wants to destroy what you stand for."

And that is going to be the way of it. Peaceful separation or war.


13 November 2019

Crypto Gambling

Ted was a guy I knew in the Marines that would go to Vegas every payday weekend (we were in 29 Palms, just a short couple hour drive away) and more often than not come home with thousands of dollars. He had the awesome crotch rocket motorcycle, a great truck, and his house was furnished with a lot better stuff than the old hand-me-downs I had. I asked him one day how he did it and he told me his system. I'm going to share it with you now.

Ted would take 200$ from his paycheck and play roulette. He would wait for the spinner to hit the same color four times, and put 100$ on the opposite color. Playing the colors is 2:1 odds, and he would double it. If he lost, he would put the other 100$ on the next one and double that, and then start over. Once he had an extra 200$ in his pocket, he would double the just-won 200$ until he was comfortable with a couple thousand, and come home. That wasn't bad at all, when we made about 1000$/month as PFCs.

Well, I have been waiting 25 years to try that system out. I haven't spent a lot of time in places that were comfortably close to casinos, so never until this summer when I went with some friends to Jackpot for Edgefest and got to play.

Well, I was not as comfortable throwing 100$ down on a single bet, but I would start around 25$, and after an evening of playing on the roulette table, I came home up 300$.

Since then I've figured out a more consistent way to play roulette. This system requires a higher start, because you need to be able to cover your loses. But I can show consistent upward growth with this system that does not require waiting for four blacks or reds. Just do every other. Do it low. Play it slow.

You walk to the table, ball last hit Red. Put 10 on Black, 1 each on Green. if you win, put 10 on Red, one each on Green. if you lose, put 20 on Black, 2 each on Green, etc.

Like I said, it takes a higher start, because in a couple losses 100 or 200$ will be gone. But with sufficient to cover your bets, like 1000$.

Remember: Always 10% on the greens.

No, your winnings won't go up as fast, but the number of times we got screwed by green 0 or 00 was maddening. Towards the end we figured out that if you put $10 on black and $1 on each green, your profit on black is 8$, but your profit on green is $24 (35 win -1 for the other green and -10 for the black).

Since dabbling in crypto I wanted to find a way to use some of it for some light gambling. First I tried the little games on the faucets, cointiply and FreeBitCoin, but while similar, they weren't what I was looking for. I tried to find an online casino, and stumbled on to BitStarz, but they gamble with BitCoin micro-satoshi, which is like a dollar a play. I didn't want to play at 1$ per play, because I'm not that rich (yet). I much prefer playing all day and not quite spending a penny.

Then I found LuckyFish. LuckyFish allows gambling of about 20 different crypto coins, and on many of the games a minimum bet of 1 satoshi (not the poker games). And if you have been collecting from some of the faucets I've mentioned in other posts, you have plenty of starting seed money. Not only that, but often times there are some more wealthy players or the game's bot, that will "Make it rain:"

I left it open on my desktop while I worked, playing during lunch, and came back to find generous players (mostly this person called BlueBalls) had padded my account with satoshi, or in some cases, multiple coins (Doge and HOT).

Note, also, that you can use BAT, which you can get by surfing and veiwing ads with the Brave browser, which doesn't track your surfing or collect your private information to sell to advertisers. (Built on Chromium, but better than Chrome)

The games use a system called provably fair, so they are not bent that you will never win.

Here's 20 rolls with Doge coin on roulette, showing a steady uptick in profit to total 75,000sat. Yes, there were losses, but as I said, doubling and repeating your bet will restore it... eventually. 

Watch out for zingers like this: 

8 reds... ugh.

The table is European style, so only one Green 0, and has a good track of your bets, as seen above. There can be up to 6 players per table, and there are a lot of tables (it shows four, but scroll and it'll keep going). I've never had to wait. 

There are other games at LuckyFish, but my experience is that roulette is my baby.

So if you enjoy a trip to the casino but don't want to throw your money to the mob, come play at LuckyFish. I haven't made a deposit yet and i have plenty of sat to throw around. All in fun.

Happy gaming!


20 September 2019

Hey, Microsoft! When did you move to Texas?

I don't know about you, but it annoys me that when Microsoft replaces a piece of software with a different piece of software, they make it BIGGER.

The two most recent examples I have are the snipping tool, and the switch from Skype to Teams.

That is each block minimized to their smallest window size. The New Snip & Sketch is twice as large. Then we look at Skype v. Teams.

that is the smallest the teams window will go. i don't know about skype, because it's no longer on my pc, but that skype window above is about right. pretty sure i can make it smaller. Anyway, there it is. almost twice as large. 

Hey, Microsoft. I love your stuff, but not everything has to be sized for a tablet.




07 August 2019

Gun Control

It happens every time. Some loser with an agenda and a desire for fame that didn't take his pills in a few days walks into a department store and caps some randos in the name of his terrible ideology, and the left screams for gun control.

Here's the facts:

  • The crazies that do this crap that are underage couldn't have purchased a gun legally, and got it from their uncle, or their parents, or a friend's parents. The laws wouldn't have mattered.
  • The crazies that do this crap that are legal adults don't have any crime problems because they haven't done anything violently illegal, so they can pass the background check. The laws wouldn't have mattered.
  • The crazies that have background issues don't buy their guns legally. The laws wouldn't have mattered.
There you go. Your gun laws don't work. You wouldn't have stopped any of the shooters. Laws don't stop people from doing terrible things, they give a framework to punish them for having already done it.

So the left wants to add stupid unnecessary laws for weapons they don't understand because they don't use them and don't want to learn anything about them, and infringe upon our Constitutional 2nd Amendment right to keep and  bear arms, a right which specifies shall not be infringed:

Amendment II
Passed by Congress September 25, 1789. Ratified December 15, 1791. The first 10 amendments form the Bill of Rights:

A well regulated Militia, being necessary to the security of a free State, the right of the people to keep and bear Arms, shall not be infringed. (emphasis added)

That means every state gun law that restricts a resident of the United States from keeping and bearing firearms is unconstitutional and should be challenged and struck down.

Regardless, let's look at what the 2nd Amendment says: A well regulated Militia, being necessary to the security of a free State.... let's stop there. Why is a well regulated militia necessary to the security of a free State? Because if we don't have weapons, a tyrannical government can walk all over the populace with no fear of any real response. This is China, Venezuela, North Korea, and every other country that holds to tyrannical ideals of power and control at the expense of their people. In a word: Communists.

America fought a war against a foreign power (England) for it's right to sovereignty, and our founders recognized that in order to avoid tyranny, our people must have the ability to fight back, hence our 2nd Amendment.

Ok, keep going... the right of the PEOPLE... stop there. An argument on the left is that we don't have militias, yet the second part of this sentence says the right of the PEOPLE to keep and bear arms... that isn't the right of the militia, that's the right of the people.

Continue... the right of the people to keep and bear Arms, shall not be infringed.

There. There you go. Shall not be infringed. All gun laws are unconstitutional.

I was watching Matt Christiansen this morning discuss the liberal media's claim that there has been more mass shootings this year than there are days, and they fear monger with this crap.

The problem is they skew data to make their point, including defensive shootings in their claim of mass shooting because four people breaking into a man's house, he grabs a gun and shoots them, killing three. That's apparently a mass shooting. 500 of the datapoints since April 23rd have been defensive shootings. Defensive. Protection. Defending ones self and family. Defense.

I live in Idaho. In Idaho you can get a concealed weapon permit, but you don't need it. You can legally conceal your weapon and carry it. Shoulder holster free for all. The limits on guns here are on people who have committed a violent crime, and the standard federal background check. Your automatic and suppressed weapons require special permits because of old democrat laws that frightened their delicate snowflake sensibilities at the time.

We also have one of the lowest gun crime rates in the country.

What cities and states have the most gun crime? Those that have the most strict gun laws.

What does this tell us? Gun laws don't work. They restrict law abiding citizens from being able to protect themselves. When you think the person you're about to rob is packing, you think again and look for an easier mark.

Ok, so we have a problem with not knowing how to deal with mass shooters, and gun laws aren't going to fix it. What should we do?

Fix the actual problem.

In the last 70 years the liberal movement has turned to one of complete degeneracy and is eating away at every fundamental principle this country was founded upon. America was a place where someone with nothing could come here, work hard, and rise above.

Instead, Left America is inviting people to come here for free health care, free college, free welfare, and more.

That isn't working hard. That isn't rising above. That is a slave caste that is tied to the party that gives them free stuff, so they keep voting for them to keep getting free stuff while their cities burn and their neighbors kill each other while they ignore laws. They are taxed like crazy to pay for all that free stuff. Liberal policies do not support the people, they chain them.

In the last 70 years the liberal movement has disrupted the family, including the complete devastation of the families of black communities, with Johnson's housing projects like Pruitt-Igoe, that told women if they want to live in the housing unit their husbands have to leave the state.

(Pruitt-Igoe is a 2 hour documentary about the housing projects. It is totally worth the watch, and completely heartbreaking. This is liberal policy at it's finest)

In the last 70 years the liberal movement has disrupted the religious by attacking Christians, literally becoming the great and spacious building, mocking and trying to lead away with their "freedom" while really leading them with flaxen cords carefully down to hell. Less people go to church. Less people believe in God.

Do you want to stop mass shootings? Marry that girl. Take her and the kids to church. Raise your children to be good citizens that respect others. Teach them how to handle firearms. Teach them the history of our country. Don't live off the government welfare system. Rise above. Lift others up with you. Take responsibility. Don't be a victim. Get off Twitter. Don't vote for liberal policies that destroy the communities they tried to "save". Vote the issues. Do research. Be informed. Don't be a liberal.


10 July 2019

Almost had to stab someone this weekend

It's a frightening thing when at 345am your tent trailer handle is being rattled because someone is trying to see if it's unlocked.

I love camping. I have a fun time hanging out in nature, taking walks on the trails, seeing water falls, playing in the river. I love taking the opportunity to hang out with friends and family, bonding with the kids, maybe a little fishing now and then.

So when Venka called and said, "Let's go camping," I was all in. We called another buddy, spent way too much money on gear and snacks, and loaded up the minivan, borrowing a tent trailer from my wife's father (because she hates camping as much as I love it, and a tent trailer is closer to a house, which makes it bearable for her), and drove out to Niagra Springs.

The first night was fine. We got there late, got set up, and went to sleep, woke up the next day and spent all day playing with my friends and kids. That afternoon the babies were cranky and refusing a nap, so the wife and I loaded them in the van and took a little drive. At the ranger station box a black Nissan Altima was stopped. No one was in it. The station was closed, so i thought it a little weird, but figured they were either dropping an envelope in the self pay box or reading some posted notifications on the bill board. They came around the corner, got in, and drove up the hill to the waterfall. We also stopped to look at the waterfall.

Afterward we drove out of the canyon and took a little trip to get the girls to fall asleep.

When we came back, that same car was back at the ranger box, the three people sitting in the car. Weird.
We drove down the hill and the woman driver got out and went to the box. it wasn't easy to see, but it occurred to me that she was probably trying to jimmy the lock on the self pay box. Stephanie took a very far away photo. All it really showed was she had a black shirt, but it was something.

We went on about our evening, grilling bratwurst and hamburgers, swimming in the river, and generally having a great time.

That night, however, wasn't as calm and relaxed.

Stephanie woke me about 345am.
"Why is someone trying to open our door?" she pushed me a little to rouse me.
"What?" Then I heard it too. She had locked the door, but someone was indeed testing it to see if they could get it to open.
I leaped from bed, reaching in the dark for my knife and van keys. The keys hit the floor, and Stephanie heard the person run off. Not wanting to go out in my underwear, i pulled on my pants and grabbed a flashlight, stepping outside.

I woke Venka and Tony, but Tony had locked his truck so wasn't interested in getting up. Venka and I walked patrol, checked on the kids in the tents, and looked around. The camp on the north side was on high alert, one guy sweeping his flashlight across the grounds, and another flipping the alarm on their car to get the headlights on. We turned on our flashlights to be noticed and walked that way to check on them. They had heard someone creeping and were checking.

It took me about 2 hours to get back to sleep, and for the rest of the night i remained dressed with my knife on my hip. Next time i'll bring a gun.

The ranger did confirm the next morning when we reported it that the lock box had indeed been broken into.


12 April 2019

Migrating a crap ton of data

At work we have an old server. Like, 5 years old, not a name brand, some custom thing by a place called @XI. Nice server, don't get me wrong, but way more than we are making use of. The thing has four six-core procs and 64GB of ram, of which our one virtual Windows 2012 server is using 2 cores and 16GB. Total waste. There is one system partition and one 3TB data partition, which is full.

So I bought a new server with 10TB of data space. The trick is how to migrate the data over.

I've heard of XCopy, and that seemed like a good place to start, but when I first tried it on the smaller Corporate files, it didn't take the permissions over, and i had to keep restarting it. Probably my fault for not understanding the switches, but it didn't go well, and it was a lot of cleanup on Monday.

But it was only about 100GB, not 3TB. 3TB is a ton of data.

So with a bit more research, I discovered ROBOCOPY. I love just the sound of that name. I'm planning on moving this data during the maintenance on Saturday night, and I know that it's going to take awhile. Do I have to stay for the entire thing?

Well, while researching exactly what flags I need to use, I discover that Robocopy can do some amazing things. Like, it can move data, and if the files are open, it goes to the shadowcopy and pulls it from there so it's not interrupted. It runs at a default of 8 threads (max 128), and can move data really fast. I'm liking this program more and more. And I can get it to move just the stuff that has changed since a specified date and time.

Now I'm excited. Instead of waiting for the maintenance, I start a copy. Thankfully I'm not deleting the data off the old server for a little while to ensure that the new stuff works. I have a plan. Move the data tonight, do the maintenance, and copy just the stuff that changed tomorrow. Nice and easy, super fast.

I am curious, how fast can you move 3TB of data on a LAN connection?

I open up a data transfer calculator, click a couple of the buttons, and see what it says.

1TB @ 100Mb = 2583 hours.

What the ever living nightmarish hell did I just do?

I check the connection on my servers, praying to the machine gods that I didn't just sign up for a copy session that is going to last... three and a half months.

They're both running at 1Gb. Time: 2.5 hrs /TB. Oh, thank you thank you thank you. So it should be done when I wake up.

Robocopy... It's Xcopy on steroids.

Update: This morning it was still running. must have been only moving small files (of which there are apparently a bigger crap ton). I restarted it, telling it to ignore existing files (don't overwrite) and it's moved a TB in the last couple hours, so good. Should be done by tonite.


31 January 2019

The Charlie Landeros Shooting

A couple days ago I saw a post from Tim Pool about Eugene, OR resident Charlie Landeros, 31, being shot at Cascade Middle School by two police officers when he pulled a gun on them. (Incident occured January 11th)

You can watch Tim's original vid here: https://youtu.be/ulCy8rC6jI8. WARNING: according to Tim if you watch the original video (not his) to the end you see Landeros shot in the head. He does not show it in his video.

Anyway, today I saw a news clip from Ammo Land about this story. The first portion of the story says pretty much what Tim had to say in his video, which is that Landeros pulled a gun in a no-firearm area (a school) and fired two shots. The officer's body cam video confirms this. But then I get to the bottom and see this:

"Supporters of Landeros do not believe the shooting was justified. Lauren Regan of the far-left Civil Liberties Defense Center said that their organization would hire outside experts to review the shooting footage. Landeros was of Mexican and Filipino descent. She believes his ethnicity played a role in police deciding to use deadly force."

Read more: https://www.ammoland.com/2019/01/antifa-member-killed-by-police-after-opening-fire-on-officers-video/#ixzz5eFiw3UXN 
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o.O I just don't understand this.

  1. Landeros went to a no-firearms location, a school, with a gun.
  2. When he was being arrested, he:
    1. resisted
    2. pulled a gun and tried to shoot the police officers

This had nothing to do with his being Mexican or Filipino. This had to do with him being stupid and pulling a gun on police officers. Body cam video confirms this.

Where.. How.. I don't even know what to say about this. How deluded is the left? How insane is the left that they ignore what is going on to blame racism?

They call this a homicide. No, it was an attempted homicide - by Landeros - and self defense by the officers.

I was surprised, at first. But then I thought about all the ridiculous people still attacking the Covington kids after the video footage confirmed that Nathan Phillips is a liar and the Black Hebrew Israelites at the Lincoln courtyard were saying terrible things to everyone present.

A large portion of the Left truly has gone insane. I worry for the fate of my country.

The article also suggests Landeros was a member of Antifa, and while Tim Pool didn't mention this, I did find a video from Justin Trouble that talks about it. If you are interested in seeing his research into the subject, you can read it here.


30 January 2019

Facebook blocks my posts... then blocks my post about blocking my post

Not sure how much longer I can deal with SJW illiberal overlords.

Matthew Christensen posted a video an hour ago about Oregon's new bill to destroy gun rights in the state. Check it out here:

I shared it, saying, "I hope our Oregon neighbors are awake to what the state is trying to do to their gun rights."
It didn't show.
I posted it again, "Oregon, wake up to what is happening to your g*n rights!"
It didn't show.
I posted without the vid, "Facebook censors my freedom of speech by blocking video about Oregon taking rights."
It didn't show.

SO pissed right now.

My wife has asked me, "Why are you so angry? This doesn't affect us. Why are you letting it get to you?"

Guess what, my love, it just affected me.

My freedom of speech is being censored by facebook. They have taken it upon themselves to police my content, as well as the content of countless others, to determine what is okay speech and what is not.

Well, I think I'm done. I'll use fb for a few pages, my game groups and stuff, but I'm not going to be active anymore. I'll use the messenger until they begin policing that, too.

Thank you, my friends.

Go to hell, facebook.


19 January 2019

Gillette joins the war... against their customer base.

*Reading it over again, it is harsh without context, because maybe you haven't seen the ad. So here's the context: Gillette put out an attack ad directed by post-modern feminist Kim Gherig.

Let's flip her message on it's head:

White women, stop killing your children and sleeping with your students. Stop nagging your husbands and treating them like crap. Stop falsely accusing men of rape, and stop faking pregnancy to trick men into marrying you.

Stop teaching your daughters to bully and harass girls in the school yard or on Twitter until they kill themselves. You should know better. You should be better. In fact, black women, tell the white women how they should behave, because you know better than they do.

Oh, and btw, white women, you're not allowed to be insulted by this, you're not allowed to insist that it doesn't apply to you. Accept it. You're toxic, and women of color will teach  you how to be women. 

Oh, and this message was written by a man who knows nothing of what it is to be a woman. You have to be okay with that too.

Now that that's out of the way, buy our feminine hygiene products.

The Problem with the Gillette Ad

Kim Gherig and the feminist run production company Somesuch, are trying to reshape what it is to be men, by making us weak, cuckolded betas.

Women, this is what you want? You want a weak, brow beaten man? You want your man to follow you around and be totally subservient to you? Because that's what Gherig thinks you should want.

What makes men men is under attack. This is the war I've been speaking about that some of you don't believe in. Men are under attack. White men are under attack. Who I am is under attack. 

I am a man. I'm not a toxic man, I am a man. I believe in supporting and encouraging my wife and children in the things they want to do. I believe in rough play, and in calm listening. I believe in doing nice things because it's the right thing. I believe in hard work and taking care of my family. I believe in seeing the woman I want to be with, in contacting her, in courting her, and in telling her how I feel. She fell in love with me because I pursued her, because I am a strong, confident man.

According to Gherig, when I was pursuing her, a black man should have intervened to tell me that it wasn't cool. 

Gillette has gone away from their message that men have good qualities that should be affirmed and supported. They have gone away from their message that men are strong and have good, positive, masculine characteristics:

They have joined the culture war on the side of Social Justice, against their customer base, accusing all men of the actions of a minority of men.

Social Justice Continues to Destroy Everything I Love

Star Wars, Star Trek, comics, Marvel, DC, movies, Linux, and now my freaking razors. Social Justice Warriors have infected everything around with their toxic ideology. They seek to shape the world in their new image. They can't make their own thing, they have to destroy mine, because SJWs don't create, they only destroy.

They attack. They insult. They deplatform. They call everything sexist, racist, homophobic, transphobic, call everyone who doesn't believe them nazis or russian bots, misogynists and white privileged patriarchs.

They insist that they are the champions of society by attacking it and seeking to tear it down, as in the radical leftist chant, "No borders, no walls, no USA at all!" or "No Trump, no wall, no USA at all!"

Marxist professors infect our colleges and radicalize our children to their views, indoctrinating them with the beliefs that white men are to blame for any bad in the world and only the church of Intersectionality can save them.

This is not a beautiful ad. This is an attack ad by post-modern feminists against men. My first razor was a Gillette. I taught my son to shave with a Gillette. I have been shaving with Gillette razors for over 25 years. Just this morning I used my last one, and it will be my last one.

So go ahead, Gillette. Hire your radical feminist film maker to drive away your base. Be politically correct and work to destroy men. Bow to the SJWs. We know how often they shave.


18 January 2019

My opinion of Transgenders

I don't care if you feel like a girl or a boy today. That doesn't affect my life in any way. I don't care that you want to wear makeup, or comfortable shoes, a dress or a padded bra. I don't care.

I do care if you insist that I use your pronouns.

Ask me to, I probably will. Tell me your name is changed from Brandon to Brie, fine. I'll call you Brie. But when you cry to me about how you are oppressed, how both men and women treat you badly, and expect me to feel sorry for you, you're out of your damn mind.

You chose this. You chose it with full understanding that you are neither a man nor a woman. You still have male junk. You have breasts. You swear like a sailor and swing your hips like an exotic dancer. You confuse people, and then you cry about it. The thing is, it's your fault.

If a person makes the decision to transition from being one to the other, they should expect and accept the hate, the confusion, the distrust. They should expect that it was going to happen, and not try and force others to accept and believe and uphold their crazy. 

This is a mental illness. This is a person that says they don't feel normal in their body and so therefore must change their body. When a person has schizophrenia we don't encourage their crazy. When a person is psychotic we don't encourage them, we get them help. This is no different.

There is a reason trans people, who are a tiny percentage of the population, about 0.6% (williams institute), have a 41% suicide rate (Virupaksha, et. al). There is a reason people who go through with the surgery regret it (Walt's Story). Because it isn't right. And with the level of confusion, hate, and distrust, with the suicide rate, with the harassment and everything that trans people go through, why would you want to be a part of that? Why would you want to be part of a movement that encourages your death? 

I think you'd be better off just being gay. Be gay. Be a cross dresser. Be a femboy or dyke. Be you loudly! No one cares if you do that. That fight was won long ago. But if you decide to be a girl with a heavy 5 o'clock shadow, or a guy with breasts, that was your choice. Own your crazy, but stop telling people that you're oppressed.


12 January 2019

Reasoned Debate vs Insults

I recently got in an argument with a person on Facebook. It wasn't on purpose.

There was an inline ad that came up in my feed about Marsy's Law for Idaho, asking people to sign a petition to give victims rights so that perpetrators would not have more rights than the victims. But no where in the petition, nor on the fb page, or the [Learn More] button does it explain what rights you are petitioning them to provide.

The conversation went like this:

After that she did not respond, so I guess, win for me? Not that I was looking for a win, I wasn't even looking for a debate. Just to point out the fallacies with the post and the hiding what you are signing, and for that I was attacked. For believing Kavanaugh did not do anything to Ford, because of a complete lack of evidence, I was called names and had assumptions made about me -- which are totally false, btw, I would not have voted for Trump. I would have looked at the Green Party, or some other libertarian centrist independent candidate.

I just found Miss Hemingway's way of response a bit extreme. Perhaps it is the anonymity of the Internet that emboldens her to speak so, to insult and yell (caps are still yelling, right?). When discussing the Kavanaugh trial she then switches to something completely unrelated to back up why Kavanaugh is an abuser.

She reframes the argument when she is losing because she can't stand on the facts, because she thinks feelings are more important. She thinks Ford's tears are more important than Kavanaugh's life and career. He's a man, other men have abused, so he must be an abuser. I have been abused, so she must have been abused.

But that isn't the way it works in reality. I know the radical leftist SJWs are trying to change reality, but as Ben Shapiro said, "The facts don't care about your feelings."


How do I find my focus?

For the last six months I have wanted to get into e-commerce. I have wanted to do something that can grow a passive income to take care of my family and not be so focused on being away from them working all day. Why am I giving my best to my boss instead of giving my best to my family?

The thing I discovered about ME starting an e-biz is that I am unfocused and easily distracted by the next shiny. First, drop-shipping from China. Then, drop-shipping from the US and Canada. Then, print on demand t-shirts. then, affiliate linking through ClickBank. then, writing monitized niche blogs. It's too much. I'm unfocused and having a heck of a time. I have a storefront on this site (click the Shop link at the top to see), but it isn't totally set up. I have several shirts to choose from, but i'm not happy with any of them. I've been so busy with the rest of work and getting the house ready to sell that I haven't had time to work on them, and so it's been a waste of money to keep up. The thing is, if I find something to sell, and then run the ads to sell it, it will probably be able to pay it back and pay for the money I've wasted on keeping it parked for the last six months.

I've noticed that about myself. I have the seven or eight pages on this site, a perfect place to be building a community, a following, and doing the things that I mentioned above, but it's taking the time to do it when I have my four kids at home and two houses that both need work, plus deciding if I can make a living from home or heading back out to look for a job. But I can't make a living from home when I'm doing all the other things that need done. Very difficult to write an article or do research or update a resume with a 14 month old on your lap that really wants to bang on the keyboard.

So my issue seems to be focus. I'm too scattered. My issues isn't that I lose interest, its that I can't decide what is more important, and I waste time on minutia and really unimportant things, like making the graphic logo on the website or trying to figure out why the menu keeps shifting up to one line.

These things don't make sales. They may help in the long run by making the site more professional, but if I had the ads running and the traffic coming, I could then have the time to fix the minutia.


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This blog is about Soul Existence and his completely random hobbies that change at least monthly. It will chronicle each of these unfinished hobbies in their various states as he wanders back and forth between them. It will update regularly, as there is always something new to try.

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